Can't Explain

My energy levels are still not where they should be

My concentration still lasts only short periods of time

I feel almost nothing, almost all the time, no major emotion

I knew to expect the headaches, dizziness and the shaking

I expected a change in how I felt, the irritability and snapping

Giving up my two big vices has left me almost empty inside

My mind has run, non-stop at a million miles a minute

Thoughts fragmented, scattered, relentlessly circling my head

Creativity lost, shoved down too deep and struggling to breath

When will I begin to feel like me for longer than a few minutes