You Know?

I just finished writing quite a long email

I email the same way I blog, without editing

The problem with that is I read it after it's sent

Typos and general english mistakes don't bother me

Sounding like a rambling and bumbling fool doesn't either

But I just read this email back and feel like shit now

I hope the recipient doesn't think I'm as selfish as I feel

I don't think I'm usually self-centred or selfish (not often anyway)

Although it was suggested I write the email for a reason

I was reluctant, until I started and my fingers took over

Now I just feel like a self-serving pain in the arse, sorry babe!

xxx

Killed the Cat

A relaxing day today, for the most part

After this past week it was welcome

As you may know, I had lunch with a new friend

I'm still not sure where my curiosity went

Dani (and Ben) suggested I go straight for dessert

Sorry girls, but dessert just wasn't on the menu for me

He's a nice guy and I'm sure I'll stay in touch with him

But there's something missing for a strong friendship to evolve

I'm still not sure what that is, maybe he's just too reserved

I don't understand being reluctant to open yourself up a little

Especially when there is no (and never was) expectation of "romance"

I enjoyed making him squirm throughout lunch

And the chatting about the psychology behind peoples actions

(As I sat making mental notes about his own words and actions)

People still manage to fascinate me, even those I'm not so curious about!

Oh Brother

I didn't intend to upset you or argue with you

I just couldn't bite my tongue any longer

I have been and will do all I can to help

It's hard to watch you walking blindly

To watch her manipulations and you bend

I've been where you are, it's not easy

Letting her walk all over you won't make it easier

Deluding yourself with reasons why won't help

We've never been close, you hardly know me

You're so defensive and jumpy you misunderstand

I only want what is right for you and yours!

Restricted Venting

Hate is a very strong word all too often used

I've always tried to refrain from using it

I can say that there is one person I truly hate

Until recently she was only a "cringe worthy" person

But she has shown herself to be so much more

I could almost deal with it if it could be put down to stupidity

But she is so manipulative, deceitful, paranoid and spiteful

And they are the nicest of her character qualities!

If she was anyone else I'd almost feel sorry for her

She is seriously in need of some psychological help

Yet her problem is mostly by choice, she's a "victim" by choice

Nothing is a result of her actions, everything is done to her

From what I know this has been the pattern of her entire life

She takes control by wronging those who've given her the most

I do believe in some form of karma, she will receive what she's given out!

No Idea

I know I've found a keeper when:

My curiosity is endless

I want to know everything

A mere thought makes me smile

I never get tired of hearing from/about them

There is that deep warm feeling inside

I know time nor distance will change nothing

I know all of this within a short time frame



I knew this of my best friend the first time I met him

Just as I did most of my close friends over the years

My curiosity was aroused recently by someone

I was intrigued and wanted to know everything

As suddenly as it occurred my intrigue vanished

This in itself is not necessarily unusual for me

A reason, at times quite petty, is not hard to find

That is in most cases, this time I have no clue why!