Over Again

I woke this morning to Little boy at my bedroom door

"Mum, it's Christmas morning!" his excitement was catching

We spent the morning unwrapping, playing, assembling and playing more

I opened my pressie and choked up, so proud of my boy and his kind heart

Little boy went off to spend the rest of the day (and next 2weeks) with his Dad

I lunched out with my Mum, no cooking or cleaning definitely the way to go

The last two days with family is what it's all about, time and laughter shared

I hope you've enjoyed your Holiday, showing appreciation for those you care for

Don't take for granted those who mean the most, today or any other day!

Life...

I stood beside the bed looking at the frail old man sleeping

His body a shadow of what it was just a few short months ago

The rattle in his chest subsiding briefly only to return again

As I touched his hand and held it, his eyes opened slightly

Recognition showed in his face as he tried to speak

The mumbled words not quite able to break through the morphine

Little boy uneasily reached out and pat the hand on the side of the bed

I leant down and whispered goodbye, kissing the man on the cheek

I left the room almost certain that I will not see my grandfather again.

Uhhh

I've been rather uninspired, kinda, sorta

Perhaps pre-occupied is more the word I'm looking for

I've hardly been able to string two sentences together

I don't know if it's just the time of year or something else

So many moments and thoughts I've considered sharing

Yet I get here and my mind goes blank, emptiness overwhelming

Chameleon

My adult years have taught me many lessons

I've made many decisions I've later viewed as mistakes

Some of them I've even made more than once

Yet I've learnt from them all, made changes and grown

I was at eighteen vastly different to who I was at twenty, or am now

I try to find the positives in situations and take those away

I get angry, sad and hurt but I try to leave the negatives behind me

How sad it seems to me that someone I care about feels helpless

To see their confidence and self-esteem so low, hear it has always been

For someone to believe they are not even capable of growth or change

To have only ever known the facade they put up, hiding for so long

To hide behind lies, happy faces and manipulations many years

Change and growth would appear so overwhelming, where to start

But the belief it isn't possible, makes the reality of possibilities unlikely.

Chaotic Calm

The last week or more has been full on in many ways

Little Boy received his first ever trophy, he is very proud!

He questioned the existance of Santa, he's growing up..

My sister, who is yet to have children, held her kids Christmas party

The children had a great day playing games, eating lollies, seeing Santa

My brother found a new home, he and I slept on the floor after cleaning it

Then spent a day moving him in, I have bruises and exhaustion for the effort

Now I have the time to catch up on my own domestic needs

As I said, things are settling down, I think....

Broken Peace

Just when you think everything is settling down

Something happens to wake you the hell up!

My mad week (two?) around my sister went well

It came to a finish and for a few hours I had quiet

Quiet came to an abrupt end and the new drama began

One on the verge of a breakdown at the actions of the other

Said "other" completely oblivious, by choice I think, of effects

I don't know what to do, or say.....

Quickie

Oh how I wish I meant that title in a much better way

Good night out last night, even if some gave up early

Little sis still here, will blog properly in couple of days

Hope you all enjoyed your weekend ;-)