Who Am I?

Some people see me as a pillar of strength,
others see me as being in some perpetual state of happiness.
Most people realise that neither can be completely true.

Some people see me simply as a single mother,
some see me as an always open sounding board,
some see me as a hollow shell for them to mindlessly fill.
Most people realise I am a bitch.

A bitch to me is not a negative!

I am always a single mother,
I am most times willing to be a sounding board,
I am some times willing to be a hollow shell mindlessly filled,
And I am most definitely a bitch.

I speak my mind in an honest and sometimes too blunt a fashion,
I don't make time for bullshit, nor do I wish for friends to put up with bullshit.
Yet kindness towards those I care for comes easily and naturally.

I am not immune to sorrow or pain.
Friends can hurt me.
I do feel!

People recently have caused me pain,
whether intentionally or not,
to say it is not "personal" makes little difference!

In this same time a new friend has emerged,
I am not seen simply as a single mother,
I am not seen as an always open sounding board,
I am not seen as a hollow shell,
I am given the freedom to be me.

But now I struggle to realise that I have become lost in other peoples expectations of who I am and who I am to be!