Surviving the Days ... and the Weeks and the Torment.


Words I write don't necessarily make sense to you... I don't expect them to, maybe I don't even want them to... The thoughts are written fragmented and incomplete! I do not write for any form of external validation.. What you read may not have the same meaning as what I write... But do not underestimate the personal significance of my words! An essential part of who I am is only evident in my writing... It had been locked away after it was used against me... Everything you need, in order to hurt me, is right here!

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Next...



The butterflies are already in my stomach, fluttering

The next chapter is about to begin

For the first time in so long it is about me

While he may not be happy just now, he can and will adapt

He will realise it is for the better for both of us

Spring is upon us and the flowers begin to bloom

Definitely time for change and it's in full swing

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

The Gifting Meme

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For those who read Ben's blog you may remember her posting about receiving her gift a little while ago and asking for three bloggers wanting to join the fun. I put my hand up and early last week (yeah I've been slow and slack!) I received my package from Ben and had so much fun opening it and going through all the little bits and pieces.

It arrived on a day that had been terrible from the moment I got out of bed. By late afternoon I was ready to tear shreds off the next person I came into contact with so when I heard the knock on the door I was worried. As it turned out I was probably lucky I didn't reach for the jugular straight away as the very nice postman handed me my package from Ben. I actually sent a curious Little Boy to his room so that I could take pleasure in opening it without the constant chatter. As I pulled the little bags out of the package and saw one specifically for Little Boy I put it to the side for him to open himself. He was so surprised and happy to be included, he couldn't get over the fact that he'd got a present from someone on the other side of the world who he'd never met. It was such a great lift for my entire day and week!

So now it's my turn, here's the deal folks I will send packages to the first three of you to leave me a message and who promise to pay it forward as well. You don't have to spend big, you just have to be willing to send a little fun to three of your blog friends when it comes your turn. I'll need postal addresses so send me an email to miss_blue79@hotmail.com if you're interested!

Now let's just hope there's still three of you out there...

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

In a Nutshell

A lot can happen in two months, it just doesn't usually...

Since my last blog...

* On the 8th April my brother told me he proposed to his g/f, they'll be married before the year ends. (I managed to offer my congrats rather than condolences!)

* On the 17th April I became an Aunty (again) to a gorgeous little girl! (So I made a cake)

* On the 27th April I found out I would be an Aunty yet again before year end! (I didn't scream in horror... nor delight but it's good)

* Sis is still living here and we still haven't had a fight! (But i have snapped at her a few times pfftt 18yr olds)

(Those first four points are each about a different sibling)


* Have put off having a particular conversation for the last 4weeks in a row (will do it this week!)

* Said G'bye to my Dad and step-mother who made the huge move to the middle of the country/desert after more than 20yrs living where they were. (My next plane trip already in the works)

* Spent a few days with Mum before she and her partner began their travels of the east coast states and then head back to Tassie. (Still don't miss her, she never feels far away)

* Had mice try to drive me insane... but I came out the winner! (I had even started to dream about the little fuckers!)

* Negotiated an arrangement with Little Boy for his first real regular pocket money. (This week only, we'll see how long it lasts) For now he's flying high...

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Movie Quote Meme

I stole this from DWaFM. A movie quote meme. Not sure if these are my favourites as such but they're up there...

Here are the rules I must follow:

* Pick 15 of your favorite movies.
* Go to IMDB and find a quote from each movie.
* Post them on your blog for everyone to guess.
* Fill in the film title once it’s been guessed.

These are your rules:

* Leave your guesses in the comments.
* No Googling or using IMDB search functions. Don’t cheat!
* Know-it-alls, limit your guesses to three movies. Save some for others!


1. "That's good. A little anger. It's a bit late, but it's nice to see."

2. "A condom is the glass slipper for our generation. You slip one on when you meet a stranger. You dance all night, and then you throw it away. The condom, I mean, not the stranger."

3. "Misdirection. What the eyes see and the ears hear, the mind believes."(Swordfish guessed by Seth)

4. "You want a Rolls-Royce, you don't come here, no no. You go to England, or wherever the fuck they make it. If you want champagne, you go see the French. If you need money, you find a Jew. But, if you want dirt, or scum buried under a rock somewhere, or some secret nobody wants anybody to know about, there's only one place to go: right here, Hell's Kitchen. It is the lost and found of shit. They lose it and we find it. Forget about it, man." (Sleepers guessed by Seth)

5. "If our Lord wasn't testing us, how would you account for the proliferation, these days, of this obscene rock and roll music, with its gospel of easy sexuality and relaxed morality? "

6. "Me? I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I saw, I'm scared of what I did, of who I am, and most of all I'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I'm with you."

7. "Uh, well... sometimes only half of the little pieces find their way through. If you had to choose only one half of your son, which one would it be?"

8. "Once again, the L.A.P.D. is asking Los Angelenos not to fire their guns at the visitor spacecraft. You may inadvertently trigger an interstellar war." (Independence Day guessed by Phil)

9. "He says the sun came out last night. He says it sang to him." (Close Encounters of the Third Kind guessed by Tex)

10. "I've just decided to switch our Friday schedule to Monday, which means that the test we take each Friday on what we learned during the week will now take place on Monday before we've learned it. But since today is Tuesday, it doesn't matter in the slightest. Pencils ready!" (Willy Wonka & the Chocolate Factory guessed by Seth)

11. "It's a decision a girl's gotta make early in life, if she's gonna be a nice girl or a cunt."

12. "I'd like to share a revelation that I've had during my time here. It came to me when I tried to classify your species and I realized that you're not actually mammals. Every mammal on this planet instinctively develops a natural equilibrium with the surrounding environment but you humans do not. You move to an area and you multiply and multiply until every natural resource is consumed and the only way you can survive is to spread to another area. There is another organism on this planet that follows the same pattern. Do you know what it is? A virus. Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet. You're a plague and we are the cure." (The Matrix guessed by Tex)

13. "Now listen here, you mullet. Why don't you just light your tampon, blow your box apart? Because it's the only bang you're ever gonna get, sweetheart!"

14. "Do not touch the glass. Do not approach the glass. You pass him nothing but soft paper - no pencils or pens. No staples or paperclips in his paper. Use the sliding food carrier, no exceptions. If he attempts to pass you anything, do not accept it. Do you understand me?" (Silence of the Lambs guessed by Phil)

15. "Hiya kids. Here is an important message from your Uncle Bill. Don't buy drugs. Become a pop star, and they give you them for free." (Love Actually guessed by Tex)

If only...

Yep, I'm bored and while I have plenty to say I can't be bothered...

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Tuesday, March 04, 2008

Me Too




I miss my solitude

I long to be alone

To get into my own head again

To do my own thing, or nothing

To hear my own thoughts

To have my own time

*** *** ***

I enjoy the company

Getting to know her better

Communicating, learning, sharing

It may be my only real chance

I won't take it for granted

I am thankful of this time.

Monday, February 11, 2008

I'm in, are you?




My littlest sister moved in with us yesterday, she's staying for the next few months. Little Boy turned 10 today! The following conversation took place this evening.

Me: Okay, I'm getting stuck in to cooking dinner now, it'll be late.

Sis: Do you need a hand?

Me: Nope keep playing the game with Drew 'cause it'll keep you both out of my way.

Sis: Good, I'm beat anyway and can't be bothered.

Me: Join the club!

Drew: I'm not joining the club for a few years yet!