Withdrawals?

Okay so last night I caught the arse end of a doco on SBS called "My Penis and I". I thought it was pretty ballsy (for want of a better word) of this guy to do. A couple of things caught my attention. The fact that there's a support group for little dicked guys in Manhattan was one, followed by the fact that there is support groups for big cocked guys too which I happened upon after googling the former. I also enjoyed the bit about Cynthia Plaster Caster, now that's a hobby I could enjoy, especially since she's taken up casting tits as well. All in all it was an interesting doco, though not enough for me to change my thinking... size DOES matter!

Now the next penis related topic comes from my (still) favourite blog, "Desperately Seeking... Something?". The photos they find (from my understanding most come from Craigslist) over there never cease to amaze me. I thought some of these fellows might need a few tips. Not that I believe any of them will come here looking for them but any of you out there who are considering posting naked photos of yourself online in the hopes of finding women may want to consider a few points:-

1. Take off your fucking socks!!!!! I can not express this strongly enough!

2. If you are going to strip, do it properly! Either you're naked or you're not, don't leave your pants around your knees or ankles!

3. Any reference to your children should be well out of the picture, this includes but is not limited to teddy bears and bunk beds.

4. Comparing your cock to various items rarely works, so just don't go there. If your cock is of a reasonable size and girth we will be able to see that. Putting a lightbulb/lighter/battery/hairspray can etc next to it will do no justice!

5. The angle of your photo is important, I can't imagine any woman being turned on by a photo taken from your feet looking up...

6. If you have a small cock maybe you should leave your clothes on. Similarly if your dick is on the larger side there is no need to try to accentuate it even more by such things as a tape measure or pulling your shirt tight behind your back.

7. The bathroom is no place for photos! Posing over the sink/toilet is not a positive.

8. If you are going to stand naked in a photo, put yourself in the foreground and not so far back that it is necessary to squint... bathtubs and home gyms in the foreground do not impress.

9. If you choose to take your photo laying on a bed, clean up around you. The size of your dick won't compensate for the clothes on the floor or the piles of empty beer cans.

10. Take off your fucking socks!

Alcoholic Donuts

Only shot I got of Trinder's Torana

So I spent all day yesterday at the drags, hoping for a win for my BIL but that wasn't to happen. Next on my hopes was lots of photos and fun with my camera, that didn't happen that much either. But the racing was entertaining so had a pretty good day anyway. The finals included a major crash, and let's face it half the thrill of motorsport comes from the crashes (mind you we never want anyone hurt!). The bloke was released from hospital late last night so it's all good and "That's racing!". Have a look at the video of it here.

Listening to the commentary throughout the day I did begin to question just what sort of people were at the track... The first quote that raised the question was about "Two of the best alcoholics around." and then a little later was this one, "Now might be a good time to shoot up" which was followed by quite a lengthy pause in which time Mum and I looked at each other and wondered what we should do instead, but then we heard, "to see the girls in our merchandise shop."

I also decided that I'd love to be a cameraman (camerawoman just doesn't have the same ring to it) for Speedweek. I could quite happily spend the entire day down on the startline, along the wall or at the end of the track with a camera on my shoulder as the cars roared past me. But then I decided I'd be sacked pretty quickly when the sponsors complained that the "pit girls" weren't getting any airtime.

Oh and we think the biggest money spinner of the day was the little food van which sold hot cinnamon donuts. One of the women we were with lined up for over half an hour in search of a few hot ones. Upon her return she passed around the bag and offered them to all, which prompted Drew's and my own need for more. I then had to line up for at least half an hour in which time I watched as the crowd surrounding every other food and merchandise outlets went running from their lines as the Top Alcohol cars had some anti-climactic drama on the start yet everyone stayed for the donuts!

Boring as bat shit...

...that's me I know, I've been told on numerous occasions.

I've had fleeting thoughts and ideas of something to write over the last week or so but none substantial enough to warrant an entry, and maybe I shouldn't have started this one either...

So I've noticed around and about the place (well was shown actually) this idea of "One Day Blog Silence" as some symbol for the victims at Virginia Tech and other victims of violence. With all due respect to the dead, injured and their families, this kind of struck me as odd and rather pointless. Seems to me part of the problem could be the silence of people to begin with. There are always warning signs in varying degrees and forms to these types of violent acts. Perhaps if more people paid attention to those around them and spoke up when something felt wrong, when someone was in need or if changes were necessary.. then some of the violence could possibly be averted.

Aside from that point, what is achieved by a bunch of bloggers not blogging for one day and are they really giving up that much? So okay those who post several times a day may get a little bored but c'mon who really cares if you blog today or wait until tomorrow? Wouldn't it be better to show your feelings by something more productive, like spending the day you're not blogging and going to donate blood which may just save the life of the next victim of violence. Or getting together and coming up with some realistic and reasonable reforms that may help stop these things from happening again and putting them forward to the powers that be. Now I'm not claiming to have any answers and I'm not putting my hand up to say what I do or don't do is any different or better than the next person, but this particular "trend" for today struck me as an attention seeking device for the individual blogger rather than something truly constructive or respectful.

The use of the line "Silence can say more than a thousand words" may have a small point, but then a thousand words is not much use anyway if it's all talk and no action. If you really want to make a statement or show respect, doing something that makes a difference doesn't have to be hard. Giving of yourself to those around you in ways big or small shows more compassion, respect and gratitude for life than sitting down and shutting up.

Cringe

No one manages to make my skin crawl the way you do

You don't even have to "do" anything to do it

Which just makes it worse when you are a prick

Your voice alone makes me cringe and want to run away

Your finger pointing and mannerisms make me sick

Your words make me want to slap you just to shut you up

The damage you could do is real, unintentional as it may be

Interview style Meme thingy

Well it's doing the rounds so I thought I'd jump on the bandwagon and asked Phil to supply me with some questions.

1. There is a great deal about you that's hidden from the rest of us in blog land. Why is that?

Well it's certainly not by design that I keep anything "hidden". For the most part I'm a very open person and almost nothing is off limits. I guess it just comes down to the way I write and the reasons I write. When I first started blogging it was purely an outlet for my frustration (hence the kinda morose name) and since it was for my benefit only there seemed no need to go into detail. My "torment" style of writing is totally emotion based and I was surprised when other people related to it at all. I've just continued to write for my own benefit and needs while enjoying the interaction from others.

2. With the first question in mind, what would all of us in blog world be most surprised to know about you?

Hmmm I've really had to think about this, I honestly have no clue what you'd be surprised to know. Maybe that I'm not as down and out as my blog sometimes seems. Most of my blogs are fleeting thoughts which pretty much go when I write. Or maybe you'd be surprised that I'm a bit of a tough Mum (apparently). Little Boy is my everything and I want to do the best I can by him, but in doing so I have been called a "mean Mum" by others, mostly my sisters.

3. The little boy is growing up and soon won't be so little. In what ways do you see him taking after you and in what ways can you see him taking after his father?

I don't notice too many ways he takes after me, I'm sure they're there I just don't see them. The only thing I can think of that he gets from me, or at least my family, is the whole thinking in numbers thing, where everything comes back to maths. On the other hand I see a hell of a lot of his father in him. The biggest one would have to be his temper, he sometimes has a very short fuse and flies off the handle totally out of proportion to the situation. His mannerism's also mirror his father's quite a bit, certain looks and ways he holds himself in different surrounds. While I don't often see myself in his mannerism's I do often see my father.

Then if you talk about interests and such I see both his father's and my own influences. He really had no chance when it came to a Motorsport fascination, mind you he has taken that ball and run laps around us. He's also very curious when it comes to nature and more so wildlife, I just hope that appreciation lasts as he grows up. He can be pretty vocal too, which is a bonus in my family since it can be a struggle to get a word in if you have to wait for a pause...

4. So when are you going to get yourself a man?

LOL who knows. It's taken me most of my life to come to the realisation that I don't NEED a man, so I'm in no rush. If you'd asked me 3,5 or even 10 years ago if I could even live without sex I'd have been terrified by the mere thought of it (and probably gone out and had a fuck just to get over the shock). Between 16-26 I was in and out of relationships, good and bad ones, and had never known what it was like to be on my own. I was of the belief that I had to have that someone beside me to make me feel right, well guess what... I don't. Now I'm going about my life the best way I can, for both myself and Little Boy, I don't feel like I'm missing something or need something from someone else to make it all okay. Which is not to say if I met someone interesting that I wouldn't pursue it...

5. Given your choice, who would you want to have a conversation with? Past or present, living or dead, anyone. And what would you talk about?

There's 2 people that come to mind straight away but neither very fun or exciting as far as answers go. The first would be my paternal Grandfather. The second would be a man I met briefly over 10yrs ago, I don't know his name. The conversations would be similar for both. It would be about what drove their actions, how they felt about themselves and the world around them. For my Grandfather, why his treatment of two children was so different to his other three kids.

Then just to lighten my mood after those conversations I'd like to sit down with Johnny Depp. The conversation could be about anything, I'm sure his thoughts on many subjects would be interesting to hear but I'd be quite happy just to sit and stare too.

So there you have it.

If anyone else has questions for me I'm happy to answer them or if anyone wants 5 questions from me just let me know.

Slade's Dirty Thirty

The Dirty Thirty(ish)

1) Favorite TV Show: Heroes at the moment

2) Favorite Type Of Music: ummm early 90's this week

3) What song are you listening to right now: none, TV is on so I'm listening to the revving of F1 engines, pretty much music to my ears anyway.

4) Favorite sexiest song: Hmm have to agree with Phil, you can't beat Marvin Gaye

5) Relationship status: Single

6) Best sex you ever had and with who: you know it's a shame that every boyfriend I've had gets beaten by one very good friend with great benefits.

7) Best date you ever been on: There's a few that are up there, the commonality being they were all very relaxed and ended after many hours of comfortable conversation.

8) Strangest place you ever had sex: This one depends on what you consider strange AND just what constitutes sex. There have been times where thngs have started before making it to more "normal" places. Others have begun and finished in outdoor/public'ish places but I don't consider them strange.

9) Best club you ever went to: No clear winner here maybe because I'm not so much of a club person, in recent years it's the gay clubs which I tend to enjoy most.

10) All time best night out you ever had: Started with a few drinks, then a great concert, more drinks and finished off with great sex (strange or not).

11) All time vacation spot: hmmm somewhere quiet, back to basics kinda stuff with fresh water to swim in. I don't care where.

12) Favorite book: umm today I'll say Misery - Stephen King

13) Favorite movie: another one that changes all the time so today I'll say Footloose (yeah very sad I know hehe)

14) Best romantic event that ever happened to you: since I've had to think bout this one for a little while now I'd have to say I've not been with any real romantics, there's been a couple of times I've been surprised by sweet gestures but nothing mind blowing.

15) Worst thing you ever did and NOT get caught: sheesh I'm boring, only thing i can think of is stealing as a teenager

16) Describe your best fantasy: I prefer to stay in the real world, most of the time...

17) Your luckiest moment: Christmas '03 when Little Boy got through a burst appendix.

18) To whom do you owe your life to: Little Boy, he has at times been my only reason for getting out of bed in the morning.

19) Who owes you their life: uhh no one I know of, I gave birth to one life but he doesn't "owe" me.

20) Best song to drive to late at night: I don't drive so meh

21) Favorite party song: one of many 70's-80's songs that are really bad until you have enough drinks in you (occasionally the drinks aren't necessary) when they suddenly become classics and worthy of singing at the top of your voice while dancing around.

(Okay so there is no 23, but there's two 28's and 29's so you get one extra and I'll leave the numbers as is anyway)

22) Best sex fantasy: Female

24) Song out right now that annoys the hell outta you: the one that comes from Ugly Betty (I think) ...*google pause*... "Suddenly I see" by KT Tunstall it annoys the fucking shit out of me!

25) Best one night stand: I had a few one nighters but none all that magnificent, ok maybe one was a little better than the rest but only 'cos he went all night, knew what he was doing (probably helped that we were sober) and had a really nice uhh body. Yeah ok he was much better than the others.

26) Greatest time in your life: 17-19 I'd left school, was working and making my own money which naturally meant party and then that time includes my pregnancy. I absolutely loved being pregnant.

27) Fantasy dream place to live: I can't imagine ever wanting to live outside of Aus and/or Sydney, so probably just a hell of a lot nicer house.

28) Fortune or fame: fortune

29) Looks or Intelligence: intelligence

28) Name three bloggers who you know you can depend on no matter what: Phil, Tom (but I'm not so sure he really counts), hmmmmm

29) Name three bloggers who's blogs are must reads: Bitzky, Ben, Squilla

30) Name three to six bloggers you would go partying with: I have a thing for guys with accents so probably the Moomin, FH and Phil for that entertainment factor and Dani, Squilla and Ben for a girls night.

Hope you all had a good Easter :-)

It's getting hot in here...

For most of my life I've been considered a "greeny" by a majority of my family and some friends. I've never thought of myself as such, even apart from the fact that in my experience "greeny" has become a dirty word over the last decade or so. I have always been aware of our environment, I've certainly always found the beauty in it and made some effort to do my part in protecting it.

From the age of about 9 I was the water police in our household, turning off dripping taps and berating the last known user for not being more careful. Turning the water off in the bathroom while whoever happened to be in there was brushing their teeth. It was also about this age when recycling became important to me. It didn't make sense to me NOT to recycle. Although from memory it took a few more years to get councils of the same thinking and I wasn't driven enough to make any attempts in changing that. Then of course I would also walk around the house switching off unnecessary lights, never quietly I always had to make it known that someone was wasting electricity by leaving it on for no reason.

None of this seemed extreme or unreasonable to me. If anything it was mere logic to minimise our impact on our planet, even if only a little in just our one household. We were being told, even then, about global warming and it simply made sense to me. It still does.

It amazes me that even today people are still debating whether global warming, climate change or whatever you want to call it, is even happening. It scares me that some politicians, notably our own PM, are yet to even acknowledge it as a real issue. Sceptics like to use the whole "it's a normal cycle" argument. That we have come so far as a civilisation in the last 100-150yrs, speaking technologically and population wise, it only follows (at least to me) that our impact on this planet would be greatly increased. Obviously, so has our knowledge of what kind of effect that has, and could have, on the planet and us as a whole.

I'm not trying to make some mind blowing point with this post. I simply felt a desire to share where my thinking lies on this particular issue after reading this opinion piece today (and some of the resulting comments). For those not wanting to click, it talks about the hypocrisy behind the actions of "candle-burning, compost-loving, carbon-eschewing contemporaries" and one Colin Beavan in particular. I also went over to Colin Beavan's website and blog and had a short look around. Again for those not wanting to click, he lives in a Manhattan apartment and has decided to spend a year living as "impact" free as possible. Which measn no cars, trains, planes, no shopping, only local foods etc etc. While I don't believe for a second that Colin has altruistic motives behind his "No Impact Man" changes and experimenting, I do give him credit for trying something. There may well be a lot of faults and hypocrisies in how he is going about things but he is among the first to admit that, from what I saw. He has gone from one extreme to another and invited the media along for the ride with the hopes of big financial gain at the end, but in the process he is finding his own balance of living well with as little impact on the planet as possible.

The original opinion piece also mentions Al Gore; "That said, I would be broke within a week if my household's energy consumption bill was anywhere near yours, which, at nearly 221,000kW/h last year, was 20 times greater than the average American family's.

Ever the politician, you refused to take the challenge to get that figure down to something approaching normal, ...."

While I'm not going to speculate on Al Gore's electricity bill (I'm actually pretty sure he'd have, at least in part, green power and buy offsets anyway) I will comment on An Inconvenient Truth. I only bought and watched this movie a few weeks ago and I will freely admit that before that I knew very little about Gore. Of course I knew he'd run for President and lost to Bush in 2000 and at the time I thought he would be the better man for the job, but that was just an uneducated instinct on my part. I watched the movie as a so-called believer and it still scared the hell out of me. The biggest thing I came away thinking about though, was just how different this world would be if that election in 2000 had gone the other way. I've since made Little Boy watch it and while most of it went over his head he did watch the projected images of where could go under water if Greenland was to melt and as he watched Shanghai go under he uttered in horror "but then there'd be no Shanghai race track!"

I've prattled on at length in this post with very little point so I'll wrap it up now. I guess my only point is that so many continue to believe that one person's changes will make no difference when it comes to global warming/climate change. I on the other hand choose to believe that if I make the changes I can and so do others then eventually politicians and those in positions of power will have no choice but to begin to make the changes that are really needed to make the big differences. So what am I doing? I'm in the process of switching to 100% green power through my energy supplier. I've already changed my light bulbs to the energy savers. I don't drive and although environmental reasons were not why I've not got a license and car before, they are a big part of the reason I will not now. I continue to recycle and conserve water. I feel like I'm doing my little bit to make a difference and I hope that it doesn't take too long for the big changes to come into play. If that makes me a greeny then I'm okay with that...